I had an awesome quiet time last night, which is really hard to do when you're out of town visiting friends. But yesterday was a wonderful day, between church & spending time with my special friend, Jenn. Here's what I had to say at the end of the day:
"I am experiencing so many emotions right now-- its so difficult to really put into words what I feel. [but I attempted...] I feel excited, anxious, nervous, hopeful, inadequate, joyful, uneasy, curious, frustrated, amazed, confused-- pretty much a whole array of feelings! I feel so thankful & humbled at the same time for this awesome, incredible opportunity. I feel nervous about how everything is going to turn out. I can't believe that all of this is actually happening. It's so incredible that this huge of a dream is coming through, but it is because this is a dream that I allowed God to plant in my heart. I am still shocked to call myself a "missionary." That sounds so strange! But at the same time, I am totally stoked because this is the result of opening my heart and my life up to the Lord & saying, "Not my will, but yours be done." This is an incredibly scary step to take in the Christian walk, but when you can wake up in the morning and know that you are in the center of God's will for your life, that's an extremely great feeling! (despite all the fear of the unknown & whatnot.)" After I wrote this, I just sat & waited for the Lord to speak into my heart. I felt him saying that there is no reason to be afraid of the unknown in Africa. He said, "I am in Africa just as much as I am here with you now. There is no need to be afraid of the unknown in Africa. You'll be fine, because you know me."
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Liters,
I have tried to put it in my heart to do missionary work. I wanted so desperately to go somewhere and teach others about God's love and help others who are less fortunate. But, I realized after many failed opportunities with either gathering the money, or mom getting sick, that that was not my calling. MY calling is at home with my husband and the girls, and reminding them everyday that they are special and how much God loves them and does for them. They have never been very religious and the oldest, Hope, has a lot of mental anguish bc of the many times there mother has split up their family. And I see it now that God has me on a mission in my own home, to help those little girls know him so they can grow up to be in his light. And realizing it now Alita, YOU have showed me the light long ago in highschool, and I am forever grateful for the experiences and times we had to grow together. Because now, I can pass that light on to 3 wonderful little girls. thank you!
Love you chica,
Amanda Sue
manda sue,
You just made me cry!!! :) That makes my heart so happy for you, and you are exactly right! Your mission is your family, and that is SO important! I admire you for not only realizing it, but doing it. I have always wanted a family, but I don't think I could do exactly what you're doing. You are more brave than you know, but so full of gentleness & grace too. I will be praying for you & your family as your minister to them. I love you!!!
Secondmilemom,
Thanks for your words of support & encouragement. I will pray that your son will see God's love for him through his mom! Many blessings on you as well...
Alita, Amen to just trying to live in God's will. One of my favorite verses this year that I keep going back to again and again is when Jesus himself said, "For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me." John 6:38. Everything seems to always boil down to that -not our will but His. I am so excited for you 4 that I couldn't hardly sleep that night after the meeting on Monday!
Julie,
Your enthusiasm for us is so incredible. Thank you for your willingness to do whatever it takes to help us fulfill this huge task! I appreciate you very much.
Love, alita
Alita, I will pray that God will continue to impress this truth on your heart. That the distractions of the future and the mistakes of the past will not interfere with the needs, desires, and calling of the present. *smile*
Jenn
Jenn,
That was beautiful. I couldn't have said it better myself. Thanks for your incredibly awesome friendship. I love you!
Leets
Wow! God is so awesome and I am so excited for you, Alita!
Steve
STEPHEN!
Thanks for checking out my blog. God IS awesome! I'm going to miss seeing your smiling face every week at church. Take care of your mom for me! Love ya, alita
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